friday afternoon delirium

This is going to be a random post. I'm sort of tired, yet wired; therefore, delerious. The day started out being a low self esteem day, but now it's just one of those days where I can't stop laughing about the state of things. Mostly because Mary and I usually can't stop laughing about everything that happens at the office, thank God for her (and thank God for Sam....haha.)

Soooo..... I got my oil changed today and of course I got the call that I needed some sort of leak repaired or I would have major damage soon. The price for those repairs...$1200. I asked, can I still drive it for a while, the answer was yes and so that means the answer is no to the repairs. Why is it that it's impossible to just get an oil change? Something else is always wrong. I guess it probably is possible that your car is fine when it isn't 10 years old...whatever, I love my car and it's leaking parts.

Something else fun that's happened today is that Mary and I arrived at work at 7 a.m. so that we could leave at 3 p.m. YET, I'm still here and Mary didn't leave til 4:00. Why you may ask? Well, I'll tell you. While everyone else in corporate America gets up on Monday ready to hit it hard and gets to the office bright and early-- my boss, gets in Monday AND everyday between 10 and 11, eats lucnch, does whatever, usually leaves by 2 or 3...3 is pushing it. It's usually not 3. Yes, this makes my job easier being that I'm his assistant, but it's like I'm so used to this schedule that when it's altered, especially on a Friday when I've been counting his early departure, I am baffled by his sudden devotion to work at 3:30 on a Friday? I want to shout, "Leave! Please leave!!" Now, he's left and I'm sitting her blogging......4:37....ppppfffffttttttttt. Fridays....I'm burnt out this Friday and I can pinpoint what it is exactly that I'm burnt out of, but I just need some sort of rejuventation? A deep breath is all I'm going to get right now because I'm about to get on the road for the 5 hour joy ride to Lubbock, Texas. Little sister is moving into the dorms tomorrow! Oh to be young again.....

Small wedding update and vent. I can't seem to pick an invitation. Everything that I love is too expensive and everything that isn't too expensive I wrinkle my nose to. I love paper and stationary, but these are things that you can cut the price on. Why is cutting the price on things never fun? I sound spoiled. I am spoiled! I'm getting my dream wedding in Santa Fe to my dream lover (ha, painfully chesey), why do I insist on dream invitations too? Count your blessings, Alexis, count them...there are millions. I haven't picked out a cake yet either? Oh well, we'll get there, we'll get there.....I read on the Martha Stewart wedding blog today, that it's all about the details. Oh the details....if only I could figure out the big things first.

There are always decisions to make in everyone's life, whatever they are for you, small or big, may they enhance your life in some form or fashion. Okay, that's all the insight that I can muster in this state of mind.....

Time to hit the road, pray for my little sister as she approaches this fantastic time in live!!

Have a great weekend....xo

I just re-read this. How pointless...oh well....oh well. pppppfffffffttttt.

Mary's New Favorite Blog

How appropriate is it that I write a blog about nothing and nothing is what I post!!! ppppffffftttttt=nothing!!! It is but a pppffffttttt in the cyber community!! I've averaging one blog per month, that really shouldn't even be called a blog. Maybe a blo or even a bl. "Alexis writes a bl." (and yes, Friends fans, this was taken from when Phoebe says, I don't even have a pl...)

Anyway, Mary has already informed me that she has a "new favorite blog"...the writer of this blog is engaged and blogs about the cute ideas that she's doing for her wedding among other things. It's good, I've read it and I enjoyed it. http://spooniest.wordpress.com/ There it is...go ahead, make it your favorite blog too. I'll just be here writing my "bl". And you know, maybe one day I'll get there, get to the level of being like "the spooniest" and blogging about my wedding and the sweet little details of it. (I guess I better make it quick, I'm getting married in 115 days.) I really can't even process the little details because I feel like I'm making all of these decisions at lightning speed and as soon as I decide one another comes about and I have to focus on that. I barely remember what I'm deciding let alone have time to blog about it. (Probably the effect/beauty of a short engagement.) Plus, I don't want to broadcast everything because I want people to show up and not know what they're stepping into. So, while I love the "spooniest" type blogs by those fabulous creative people out there. I'll have to remind myself that the theme of my wedding is simple and the creative elements at my wedding will be the people....because that's what makes it special.

And like a wedding which is special and unique to the couple getting married, what makes a blog special is that it is unique to the person that writes it. Some one's passion, opinion or commentary is shared. So, while, it is true I am a changed, I'm an engaged girl, the blog will reflect that because it can't help that. I cannot solely blog about the wedding because I am not solely about a wedding. Though society really does breed you to be. I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "This wedding is all about you. You're the bride." It's like a breeding farm for narcissism. What do I want? What do I need? I! I! Me! Me! There are even tv shows that document this, Bridezillas on WE (yikes). The reality is that society is partially right, a wedding has A LOT to do with the bride, but the thought of all this focus on yourself if enough to give anyone a heart attack. All that has happened to make this wedding possible is that that two people are in love and want to spend the rest of their lives together and share this joy with people that they love. How does the simplicity of that turn into anxiety over bridesmaid dresses? I don't know, but it always does. I've really had to refocus several times in this process because I have literally forgotten that I get to marry the love of my life when I'm in tears about the guest list. Does the writer of the "spooniest" have this problem. I'm not sure...

In essence, I suppose what I'm saying is that I have a semi-urge to blog about wedding things and sometimes I might. I'm girly and I like this stuff when I'm not stressing out about it. Andddd this wedding business is a big part of my life right now, BUT it's not MY LIFE. Sooo, I will blog about whatever pops up in my mind, whether it be the center pieces at the reception, the financial crisis or who knows what else. But, I will keep trying to share my life with you, my thoughts...wedding or non-wedding related....

"All you need is love." - John Lennon and Paul McCartney (See you tonight at the Cowboys Stadium, Paul. I'M SEEING A BEATLE TONIGHT...that should take my mind off wedding stress!)